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Its been a while.....
Everythings changed, people, places,friends,faces
i know ive changed, and i dont really care
a couple of time recently ive made some bad calls
but then i think about it and why do i really care?

I mean my ex boyfriends online girlfriend talked to me and we seemed fine, and yes i openly admit that i laughed with my friends about it, which wasnt a nice thing to do, and i find funny because she told me that she had read all of my old entries, well if she had then she should know that i was in love with him and i cared alot about him... would you intro youre self to youre love interests old love?
And i know they care about each other, but looking at it at the end of a day ITS ONLINE and they are in different countries, its not really the same and all the little fights they have..... Shes looking for someone to look after her, and seems to want physical attention and from her perspective he doesnt seem to be giving the same response.

But to nikolay. I dont think i will ever stop caring about you and i will always be slightly jealous of someone that has you. But i know we probably will never be able to talk and thats probably ok because id want to remember the old nikolay. I mean you have her, and hey who knows it might work out, and i have someone else and i really like them and we'll see.

BUT!
It was my jealousy and stupidity to talk about her and it was me saying the not so nice things. and when i was being mean i wasslightly pissed so was releasing tension.

And for my amusement here are some quote from his diaryland and some point to go with them:
" Funny how little you can know people" When was the last time you actually spoke to anyone not involved with pk let alone with anyone i know or even me.

"I left you people a long time ago due to reasons which I could not control." What were these reasons exactly? I made an effort to try and talk to you and stuff but you never seemed to care. But you didnt leave us all did you, we still heard things about you from aisha, the girl you made jokes about with us.

"you yourself had added just a short while before" She added quite a few people.

"some fucking cold things that are genuinely insulting" what exactly did we say. because that is something that confuses me i dont ever remember being THAT mean

"I know you woul never have the fucking guts to say to them face to face" Is that what you think? as youve said you dont know us anymore, to think about it did you ever really know us at all? I have told her several times that she could do better than you but shes determined that you two would work well together

And im really not bothered by you, but remember the big red thing is me and not let this overflow to some genunilt nice people but hey does it look like they really care too much i mean who are you to them? A friends ex boyfriend. I dont know.
Well best of luck with Anu
Sky

The tears fell at 9:38 a.m. on July 01, 2005

& on:
- - February 12, 2006
- - August 03, 2005
- - July 01, 2005
- - July 01, 2005
- - June 16, 2005

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